Gizzy in Heaven!

Gizzy in Heaven!
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Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Gizzy not doing so good

(Gizzy and Weezie yesterday morning)

I've not been online very much, except to obtain some advice and information on kidney failure in dogs. I spoke with the Vet yesterday and he says I'm doing all I can do for him. I have been pureeing Gizzy's food and feeding him in a dropper for almost two weeks. He hates it, but I do it anyway, even though I know he doesn't like me for it. He loves being clean, so I clean him up and brush him when we sit outside by the lake and tell him how handsome he looks. He is a very proud boy and will be to the end.

(Gizzy yesterday morning)

He loves just sitting by the lake and watch - so I made him a little head rest from the towel because he's so tired that he has trouble holding up his head.

This morning, he was bright-eyed and bushy tailed, wanting to go outside when it was still dark, so I took them both outside and had my coffee on the back porch. But now, at 1 pm, he's tired and not eating or drinking his water. I gave him some pureed sweet potato (to help him go potty) and he vomited it all up, so I gave him a little Pepto Bismol, but I know that the end is near.

(Gizzy last night after a drink of water)

(He still looks cute, but I know he feels bad)

I won't let him suffer much longer because it's not fair to him. I will wait a day or two in case he makes a recovery, but if by the week's end he's not any better and continues to refuse food/water and vomiting, then I know I will have to help him along.

(Gizzy this morning)

It's incredible for me to realize how sick he is when he still looks so good, but it happens with people just the same. They can look healthy all the way to the end and many people (or animals) don't look sick when they indeed are very sick. 

I've been in a perpetual state of heart ache and crying off and on like a psycho....I know I gave him a good life, but I wanted him to live longer, but I realize, no matter how long a pet or loved one lives, saying good-bye is just as difficult and I would be just as upset if he were 20 instead of 14. 

I'm sorry, this is sad news, but I thought that in all fairness, Gizzy's blogging buddies should know what's going on with him. I've lost animals before, but I'm especially attached to this little guy for so many reasons and I am breaking out in rashes all over my body - probably from stress and anguish. Please, pray for my boy  and for me so that I know when it's time for him to go...I do not want him to be in pain.


Lisa @ Two Bears Farm said...

Oh Doris, I'm so sorry to hear this because I know how much you love Gizzy. He is a wonderful dog! I'll be thinking of you and Gizzy.

Parsley said...

I've been here, in your position. Just love him. You'll know when you need to help him in other ways. HUGS

Robin said...

My heart aches for you both.... Gizzy DOES look as handsome as ever....but YOU know him...

I am saying prayers that he pulls through this... stay as positive as you can. But, I know when you are there with him, 24/7, you see and feel all he is going through.
I understand your crying "like a psycho"... this is the ONLY awful thing about having a Furry One...and when you are going through is hell.

As long as he tells you he wants to go outside....he still has that *spark* you must be a brave Mum and give him those hours.

I send you all my strength and love....and prayers too.


♥ Robin ♥

Mindy said...

I'm so sorry. Praying for your comfort.

marianne said...

O dear Doris................This is heart breaking!
I hoped Gizzy would recover and spend a few years with you and Weezie but alas .
And I know all about pets looking good and feeling the opposite . I had a cat and he was so handsome until he died. even when dead just before I buried him he looked like the most healthy cat. So looks can be deceiving.
I know you are the best Mom Gizzy (or any other pet) could wish for and you know when it is time to let him go.
I will keep you and Gizzy in my thoughts!
My heart will break just like yours
sending you both hugs and love♥

Babydoll1962 Kreativ Ecke said...

Liebe Doris , wir wünschen deinem Schatz alles Gute und Drücken die Daumen für ihn.
Und wenn es das Schicksal anders will, so muß auch dieser für dich sehr schwere Gang gegangen werden.
Wir drei werden in unserem Herzen bei Euch sein!
Sei aus der Ferne gedrückt und getröstet!
Alles liebe
Doris und Anhang!

Robin said...

What you are now goig through is the only bad thing about having a Furry One. It is hell.... I know.

You are doing all you can for Gizzy...and as long as he still wags his tail and wants to go out for some air...then, let him. As Parsley will know if you need to do more to help him.

You are not alone here (although you are the one sitting next to Gizzy 24/7).... you are loved by so many of us.....and we are saying prayers for you and Gizzy. (And Weezie, too.) Sending you love and strength,

♥ Robin ♥

gin said...

I am sorry that Gizzy is not any better. It is sad, and I do feel your pain too. Gizzy is a trooper -- and he is being so strong for you. I'm sorry it is so hard for you. We all understand. Give him your undivided attention. He knows your love for him.

Heather - The Good Life said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Gizzy, he's been your companion and friend. It's never easy to say good-bye. Thinking of you.

Ginny said...

Doris, I am so very sorry!!!! I know that you will know for sure when the time has come. And I know it doesn't make you feel any better, but he was so lucky to have you, you have given him a wonderful life and so much love. Gizzy would not want you crying and getting sick like this, he loves you and is so grateful, he would want you to go on and be happy!

Anke said...

Doris, es tut mir so leid wegen Gizzy. Man sieht wie sehr du an Gizzy haengst und wie schwer dieser Abschied fuer dich sein muss. Ich denke ganz feste an dich und wuensche dir viel Kraft!

rosenresli said...

Hello Doris,

I just read about your Gizzy. Kidney failure is sometimes a problem of small dogs. I´m a mom of two tiny Biewer Yorkies, one is healthy but the other one has
some difficult health problems too.
Please, visit the

forums and write about Gizzys Problem. There are users which have much experience with this illness and can propably help you and your baby.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and Gizzy,

Tanja from germany

Sugar the Golden Retriever said...

Woof! Woof! You have to do the right "thing" Yes it is hard ... Sending you Lots of Golden LOVE n Woofs, Sugar

Anonymous said...

Doris, my heart is breaking for both you AND Gizzy. He's such a sweet little man and has brought us all so much joy and happiness when we visit your blogging sphere. You will know when it is time and when it comes, be sure and come back to your blog to look at all your wonderful memories. He's such a sweet boy. I too will miss him.

Piappies World said...

Hi Doris,

We got our paws crossed for Gizzy and for you as well. Going through this struggle is very difficult and we hope there is more we can do to comfort you.

Hang in there, Gizzy. You are a very special dog and we are sure that you both cherish each moment you have together.

Piappies Fudgie, Princess, Frappie, Mocha, Sugar, Wai-Pai, Wai-Max & Forgie

retdairyqueen said...

Such a sad time for you My prayers are coming your way Last year was bad for us We lost our beloved Bella (pomeranium) and then our daughter to breast cancer

Chatty Crone said...

Oh Doris - I feel so bad for you and Gizzy. I know you heart is breaking I just know how much you love that little guy. I am so sad and will be praying. sandie

Krafty Max Originals said...

Oh Ms. Doris, my heart is breaking for you. I enjoyed meeting Gizzy and will miss him very much. I know that you will give him the love and kindness that he needs to make his time wonderful! He would want you to enjoy his time and not worry so much! You are both in our prayers - the kids and mine! ~KM

sprinkles said...

I am so sorry, Doris! I've been there and know just how heartbreaking this is for you.

I'll pray for you both.


Mariette's Back to Basics said...

Dearest Doris,

This is sad and heart breaking but as you say, only a few more days of observing and than comes the moment for making THE decision. I will never forget when I held my Mauzie as she died from the injection the vet gave her to put her asleep, out of her suffering from cancer... I felt her heartbeat as I held her head and all of a sudden the veins went silent, no more pulsing. I cried and held her but Pieter needed to bury her in streaming rain. That was the end of my brave and beloved Mauzie the black and tan Dachshund. She immigrated with me to the new world, flew back and forth on a plane with us. Never I will have anthing like her... So I know how you feel. Crying is okay, it's a positive emotion that you have to let go of your hurt. Be brave and love him every second for the coming days and than help him. He's doing it for you, being brave but he's suffering for sure.
Love to you and a big tight hug from one animal lover to another.


Beansieleigh said...

Oh, Doris, I can hardly see through my tears to type!! (and believe me, I'm not a very good typist! It's best if I can see what I'm doing, or who knows WHAT I'll be saying!)... Sweet Gizzy is a part of our "family"... a little cutie, I must say, who I look forward to seeing on my blogging rounds, just as much as any human! Together, you've both made me smile, too many times to count! I will say a prayer tonight for your sweet boy, and hope for the best. ((Love-n-Big Hugs)) ~tina

Sharon said...

I'm so about Gizzy, Doris!

Aunt Pitty Pat's Fun said...

Doris my heart is breaking for you right now.. I am fighting back the tears to try and write something that can help ease your aching heart just a little. I like many of your readers are so very sad to hear what is happening to your beloved Gizzy. He has been a good boy and a great companion for you for a number of years now. I know he will also miss you until you meet him again in our lords home. You can be rest assured that he will be waiting on his momma Doris with that cute little punkin face and that happy wag of his tail... Doris my friend... I am so so sorry.That you are having to go through this... I know you will know when the time is right to give Gizzy that last loving earthly hug.. Just remember you were the best mommie any puppy could have ever hoped for in their life time... Doris I am sending you out a huge hug from Me and The Pitty....

Pammy Sue said...

I'm so sorry to hear about this, Doris! There are no words of comfort I can give you, although I wish there were. Hugs.

Deborah said... heart aches for you and Gizzy...I just adore this little handsome guy...I love how you supported his little head so he can look at the lake...I know he loves you just as much as you love him...I am so sorry you are going through this and my heart and prayers are with you both my friend.


Mausie1 said...

Oh Doris. Es tut mir echt so leid mit Gizzy und fuer dich,. Ich denk an dich und drueck dich,,, sending hugs to Gizzy and you.and weezie of course....I been keeping up through facebook but haven't said much know that I think of oyu every day..Birgit

Ann said...

Doris I am so sorry that Gizzy is doing so poorly. I know how difficult it is to lose a beloved pet. They become more like one of our own children.
My thoughts are with you and I'll be sending up extra prayers for you and Gizzy both. I just wish there was more I could do.
Big hugs for you